If there were such a thing as reincarnation, I firmly believe that in a former life I drowned in a large body of water. Ever since I was 5 years old, I've had a recurring nightmare of being out in the middle of a lake or ocean without anyone around. As far as I could see, there was water, no land in sight! I remember waking and being terrified of this dream. I would try to think happy thoughts to get myself to sleep, but my mind would wander back to this nightmare.
To this day, I have no desire to be IN water unless it is in a swimming pool. I have been itching to exercise ever since we got here to Lake Arrowhead. They have hiking trails, but no flat running trails. I haven't ventured out to find these trails, either; they take a bit of research to find and drive to. Since I look out at the lake all day and I'm about 10 feet from it, I psyched myself up and decided to go out for a swim. I mean, why not? It seems like the perfect thing to do!
I put on my suit and the family walked with me down to the pier to cheer me on. It took me a while to get the guts to jump in, but eventually I took the dive. Immediately, I swam back to the pier and got out. I thought that once I jumped in I would get over the anxiety, but I was wrong. My anxiety tripled, my heart was racing, and I realized that this was NOT going to happen today. I gave a whole hearted attempt, but I just couldn't do it. I jumped in...that was a start, right?